Evolving back to Love
Life evolves, we evolve. Love evolves with us…
The answers to the deepest questions are oftentimes disarmingly simple. Why are we here? We are here to evolve, to mature, to grow. It’s kind of obvious isn’t it?
What we often struggle to square with our highly developed minds is how short life is and how much there is to know. The answer is that we evolve over many lives. Our soul needs for us to experience the fullest spectrum of experience, and this simply isn’t possible given the brief sojourn that a single life on earth affords. With each new incarnation, our soul takes on a different journey and grows and grows. We carry forward deep lessons born of deep experience into each fresh incarnation.
Our soul evolves in the larger cycles of reincarnation. We evolve within the smaller cycle of our present lifetime. Microcosmic evolution for the evolution of the macrocosm.
Interestingly enough, evolution is most purposeful when there is a lack – when some resource is becoming limited. Fish were driven to transform their fins into limbs and their gills into lungs because the water that was their home receded. They were forced to adapt. Out of limitation came evolution. At this time as humans, we are being forced to adapt to a new stage in our evolution. The waters of limiting old patterns are receding, and those who haul themselves onto the beach of new ideas will evolve dramatically. Sadly, those who choose to remain clinging to the old, limited ways will sink into an ever more competitive world – a shrinking pool of inexorably receding resources.
The wisest teachers demonstrate to us that we must embrace experience fully in the moment in all of its beautiful, crazy and challenging forms. As we evolve, we learn to desist from judging experience through the lens of separation. We grasp the tyranny of dualistic thinking and cease constantly deciding if we like or dislike – if something is good or bad. We begin to see that the limitations we experience are inviting us to evolve.
We also learn to stop pushing. Evolution cannot be forced. Much as we would love to have a step by step programme with guaranteed results at certain stages, life isn’t like that. We can meditate for hours and make time to practice yoga and do pranic breathing techniques till we exhaust ourselves but the goal eludes us because evolution has no goal. Evolution is an infinite divine process that, like time, appears to be streaming from a single point to some kind of place we can get to if we just try hard enough. The truth is Evolution is a process that is driven by the divine which is beyond all conceptions of the mind. It cannot be measured or detected with instruments. It simply is, and it is not trying to get somewhere. It is perfectly growing into infinity.
Humanity is locked into a tremendously convincing belief – the belief that this happened because of that – that time flows in a straight line, and we are incapable of transcending this self-evident phenomenon. But quantum physicists are now demonstrating unequivocally that our whole framework of beliefs – our time-honoured concepts of cause and effect are utterly inaccurate. The belief that our external reality is solid, separate, and unconscious is hopelessly flawed. Belief is proving itself to be inherently limiting.
Reality is infinite and dynamic, conscious and in constant flux. Vibrations appear solid because we believe so resolutely in time as we experience it. Time is merely the experience of perceptions being recognized one after another so that we can know the full spectrum of All That Is. Ask yourself this: If the universe is finite and expanding, what is the universe expanding into?
So we evolve, simple. Evolution is divine love getting to know itself. Evolution is our taking in experience upon experience until we become aware enough to recognize that we know nothing of truth. We evolve to the point where we can see through the veil of duality. And then we are ready to know true love.
True Love has no conception of good or bad. True love embraces all that stands before it and welcomes each experience as an aspect of itself. To love in this way is to love as God loves.
When we are at last open to loving unconditionally, we are ready to reunite with the other half of our soul. And then real growth begins. We no longer seek to decide arbitrarily if we like or dislike our human experience, and so every thought we had previously shunned into the shadow of our psyche – every belief we didn’t know we had – every judgement we laid upon our fellow travellers on the road, is revealed to us in Technicolor, and we sink into a morass of self-recrimination. For now we recognize how stupid we were to settle for the illusion of a separate self, devoid of true purpose and angry as hell.
We lost half of ourselves at the beginning of time and spent lifetime after lifetime believing we were alone, and that we would never know what it is to be whole. But aloneness carries the secret to wholeness. To heal is to become whole. Healing is needed because something is missing – something is amiss. The very word tells us so: alone equals all-one. The answer was always there.
We long for wholeness in ourselves, but as long as we believe we are separate, we cannot heal. Ultimately, we are shooting for unity with the divine, but first we must find our true nature within. We must find unity within our own being before we can reunite with our other half, heal our torn hearts, and continue onwards into divnity.
What I didn’t realize was that to heal is so incredibly painful. I strove to become whole in myself on my spiritual journey, and just as I found a state approaching wholeness – boom! I met my other half. And I was forced to look at every way I had deluded myself that I had dealt with all my stuff.
The other half of my soul is me, and I cannot hide from her. I cannot hide my awareness of missing myself. And so, I was made to face the dark side of my nature that I had chosen to ignore for time immemorial. And that’s rough. My first response was to defend and avoid. I wanted to run away.
Yet Suzanne and I did not run away. We faced each other and we cried. We screamed and we competed. And we dealt with all the crappy traits that have held humanity back, which we denied ourselves we already had. We had to learn to accept ourselves and each other just as we are. And then we began to truly heal.
And now we know that our purpose is to be here for other Twin Flames whom are dealing with such tumult and terror. We love you, and we are here for you always. You ARE ready now. You WILL grow towards each other. You WILL know true love. We all will. That is evolution.